The Octopus in Charge

The Decision-Making Octopus, Part IV

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When the Octopus Runs the Show

There are phases of life where you can pretend the Octopus is just a background character —
pulling a few emotional levers, whispering doubts, occasionally tripping you up.

Then there are phases where it grabs the wheel.

This is about that.

The Slow Takeover

It doesn’t happen all at once.

At first, it’s just a few decisions made from fear.
A few conversations you avoid.
A few roles you over-perform in, just to feel safe.

But slowly, without you noticing, the Octopus becomes your operating system.

• It handles your calendar.
• It dictates your tone.
• It chooses your silence.
• It writes your texts.
• It accepts your job offers.
• It delivers your jokes.
• It chooses when to hug your child — and when to look at your phone instead.

You’re still there.
But you’re not driving anymore.

The Illusion of Control

The Octopus isn’t stupid. It knows how to look like a functional adult.

It builds a very competent life.

• You’re productive.
• You’re useful.
• You’re stable.
• You show up.
• You say “I’m fine” like it’s a job title.

And underneath all of that, the tentacles are pulling in opposite directions.

• One is pushing for perfection.
• One is spinning out about money.
• One is scanning the horizon for the next emotional threat.
• One is whispering, “You're failing at this.”
• One is just quietly muttering “fuck it” under its breath.

From the outside: capable.
From the inside: brittle.